Day 2 - 1

I was able to hold Nicholas a bit ago!! They said I could nurse him, but he wouldn't nurse  But it was so nice to just hold him for a little while. My parents also brought Luke up for a little while to visit Nicholas.

This is so hard watching my baby like this. I thought once we were through the surgery that a lot of the stress would be gone, but this part is almost more stressful. I hate to see him cry and there is nothing I can do to help. Crying is pretty difficult for him to even do because his throat is hoarse from the breathing tube and he doesn't have much energy. His breathing seems very shallow now and he seems to jump a lot. It has me pretty concerned, but the nurse assures me that the shallow breathing is just because it hurts to breath deeper. She did say she doesn't know what is causing the jumping, but said all his signs look good. The doctors will come look at him again this evening; they are in surgery right now. I am just so worried about him.


Here he is today: